feeling as if i should say something...then again maybe i shouldnt...but i know what i should do is go to God...if it is meant to be He will let it happen
Tuesday, 08 May 2007
then again...
even if i did find out tht he likes me *hypothetically* what would i do? how much of a chance would i compromise my values to go out with him? not much i think ...therefore i think i shall let it be...plus its better that way... surprise me
Saturday, 21 April 2007
truth
things might get clearer if i step back and look in...after talking with a good friend...well it might just be that i dont like him but like his company and im getting the 2 mixed up...???...i think at the moment im a lil of both...not realli one or the other cuz im picking up on the gestures and things he says...
patience is a virtue - hehe im working on it
Wednesday, 18 April 2007
u say cat i say dog
oh a ton of mixed signals rite now...i think i expect too much of people sometimes - where i need to just go with the flow and appreciate the moment =) hehe chivalry is dead - or is it?! hehe i still appreciate whn a guy opens doors and pulls out chairs...even though hehe i can do tht myself but hehe as a girl it makes me feel extra special...
then again mayb theres nothing there...all the lil things ~ do they add up to anything?
makes me frustrated sometimes - does he or does he not know?!
Friday, 06 April 2007
vulnerability
wanting to feel needed? now that i am let go...am i unconsciously wanting to feel needed? muchas gracias to julies intense Q n A last saturday...i got quite a handful of information and i remember wht he said...
which confuses me...i feel so blessed whn ppl spend time with me...whether its talking or doing something we like...so wht does all this mean??? *scratches head, shrugs*
sillie me called him tonite without an excuse...and he was out drinking with friends...and as any girl(friend) would worry esp. if he is out drinking and there are other girls - regardless of wht he says the relationship might be with her - drinking incapacitates ppl! * to the point where i cannot love and respect ppl the way Jesus does thts my limit...learnt it the hard way...i esp. dont want ppl to regret wht they did the nite before because their onli reason was "i was under the influence of alcohol" - esp. if this is a guy i like too...hahaha wont settle and wont tolerate!
guess part of me wanted to be out and about...home alone tonite...wondering wht life would be like with a group of friends tht always went out...but im so blessed by the ones i have now...movies and chitchat...gotta love girl nite in! speaking of i need one soon!
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